Birthday post

Every year on my birthday, I check in on my New Year's Resolutions, just to see how on-track I am for reaching my goals. I used to consider this incredibly neurotic, bordering on embarrassing, but then I read that Jeremy Renner creates a life chart for himself each year in order to see if he's on target for where he wants to be in life. And he's a famous actor who builds houses on the side, so... there.

This gives me license to be neurotic as I wanna be.

Here were my goals for 2012:

Travel – Go to London, baby!

TV – Two hours a week during school weeks

Reading – 40 books

Fitness – Lose 11 pounds; complete Couch-2-5K program

Diet – Paleo diet, with three splurges a week

Writing – 2,000 words a week, Poem-A-Day in April, NaNoWriMo in November, continue to post The Cosmos Within, find a venue for Katrina’s stories

And here's how I've done as of July 12 -- my birthday:

Travel - We went to London, baby!
TV - So far, so good. We've done more reading, crafting, and creating than TV viewing. Next year, I might consider tackling my various social media addictions.
Reading - So far, I have read 24 books.
Fitness - I've lost 6 pounds and have completed Couch-2-5K; Now I'm working on Ease-Into-10K
Diet - Doing better here... keeping mostly to Paleo lifestyle. We're eating healthy, except today there will be cake!
Writing - Utter fail for Poem-A-Day. I wrote six poems. Six. I blame the rather wild spring semester we had, and my mismanagement of various stressors and emotions. Must do better next year. During the summer, I write well over the 2,000 word goal. I completed The Cosmos Within as well as another Doctor Who story called Tricky. Then, I wrote a 50 page Avengers fanfiction, and I'm currently working on an Unusuals fanfiction. That's the real vacation right there! I do still intend to take on the NaNoWriMo challenge, and find a venue for Katya's stories.

Also, I have a wonderful friend reading my novel, Reprieve, so with some work and a bit of luck, maybe that one will get published.

I think I'm on target for meeting my goals this year. Most of them. That's a pretty nice feeling. I think I'll celebrate with some bacon!

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Poem-A-Day 009: Shady Grove

Today's prompt is to write a shady poem. This is perfect, because a very important place in our family history is our cemetery, Shady Grove. I cannibalized bits of my novel, Reprieve, to write this descriptive poem.

Shady Grove

No grand entrance precedes
the rutted track
leading to Shady Grove.
No wrought-iron gates.
No Gothic statues.
No moss-veined angels.
Only a break in the pines
and a green highway sign
that says “Cemetery”
with a white arrow
pointing right.

Pines tower over the road,
woven together by a net
of honeysuckle vines
and poison ivy.
Soon the forest curtain
gives way to a sloping field
piled deep with grass
so green it hurts your eyes.
Yellow sunflowers
and pink buttercups bob
under drips of rain
along the fence posts.

The chapel rests on raised pylons,
a doe asleep on folded fetlocks,
eyes closed and softly breathing
the fetid scents of fresh earth.
Its one room of raw pine boards
dappled with constant shade,
its steeple cloaked
in the interlacing arms
of the shepherding groves.

You approach, head bowed,
reverent to the silent woods.
The path fans around the chapel,
and you take the left,
bound deeper into the forest
where sleeps five generations
of your family in the graves
of Shady Grove.

Poem-A-Day 008: Weight

Yesterday's prompt was to write about rejection. In recent years, I've been rejected for a number of things for a variety of reasons, but the one that stings most is, of course, from a break up. Basically, he chose her. I'm still bitter about it. Maybe writing this will help?

Weight

Naive
believing
in us against
the weight of years,
against the pull of the
time you spent with her.

You
had the
accumulative
habits and rituals
of a life that began
in your shared youth.

While
I held out
only comfort
and love without
guilt or belittlement,
without any expectation.

Only
I hoped
it would be
enough for us,
this small stone
for us to build upon.

I thought that in choosing,
you would choose me.
I didn’t calculate
the weight
of time
with
her.

Poem-A-Day 005: Happy Birthday

The prompt for today is something from my past.

Well, this poem is for my lovely assistant teacher, Kat, whose birthday was in December:

Happy Birthday
a poem for Katrina

We both were scared and unprepared
For what Paredes held
But like a shot, you read my thoughts
Just like a Vulcan mind meld

Fantastic wit, you never quit
Wicked, the Doctor, Glee
A super talent, always gallant
Yeah, you had me at “Squee!”

Then every day, you had this away
Of making class awesome
With strong diction and fanfiction
You made this job such fun

And now teaching it is the thing
You say you will pursue
We all marvel by how much they’ll
Be inspired by you

And with Klainebows and heaven knows—!
Your spark ignites the fuse
So celebrate! We all can’t wait
To share this path you choose.

Poem-A-Day 007: Blank Canvas

Blank Canvas

Somewhere between coffee cup
and the sink she realizes
He’s at it again:
sifting through messages.
The reason they’re
at his apartment,
drinking his weak coffee,
using his sour towels,
curling into his hard bed.
Messages.

She rinses the cup,
listens to him hum
some foreign lullaby,
one his mother maybe
sang to him?
His mother he
never mentions.
Volumes of words on
economy and currency exchange.
Talks and says nothing,
his voice is a blank canvas,
a sham in the MoMA
and everyone is buying.

She dries the mug,
turns it over and over
in her hands.
Aging hands,
she thinks.
He’s typing now,
and she knows,
today their time is done.
The sheets still
bear their warmth,
the creases like
meringues whipped stiff
the night before,
now stale.

The cup clean in her hands,
she returns it to the cabinet.
Without a sound,
She toes into her shoes,
slides into her blouse
and slips out
without a word
like she was
never
even
there.

Poem-A-Day 006: Not the Same As Lost

Yesterday's poem, following the prompt at Poetic Asides. It's about something hidden, but I kept mixing it up in my mind as something lost. Therefore, I combined them.

Not the Same as Lost

In the mossy hollow
of a wizened willow tree
where sleeping seasons
rest in rings wound round
a sunken core,
there lies a time
when rains fell
in lavish veils
over young, strong
outstretched arms
and green coiled out
in fiddlehead finery
to shadow the brush
beneath.

There,
almost concealed,
a flash of eye
the tip of wing
a breath of old
wilderness
not lost
but hidden.
Safe,
unseen.